Change

Hello family and friends!! I know I have not updated my blog in FOREVER, but life has been pretty crazy. Just a quick update for those of you that don’t know what is going on. About two months ago Nick came to me and told me he wanted a divorce. I was in COMPLETE shock, I knew that our marriage was suffering but I had no idea Nick felt this way, (and I take full responsibility for my blindness). So to make a long story short I tired convincing him to stay for the last two months, Nick keep telling me that it is over and nothing is going to change that. So two months later I can’t keep convincing him to stay, so it is final. This whole thing breaks my heart for my kids they just don’t understand what is going on. As for me I want to let everyone that has been there for me know that they are the ones that give me strength, that without them I probably would have went CRAZY! So thank you to all the people I love, (you know who you are)! As for the future I am excited to get ME back. Through the years of being pregnant, a mom, a wife, and a maid I lost who I was. I can’t wait to get back into the things I truly enjoy and get my life back for my kids and for MYSELF. I have all ready started a great thing in losing the weight I want to lose, (34 pounds to date), and I can’t wait to keep losing the weight. One last thing if I happen to see you at church or out and about please don’t have pity for me that is the last thing I want is pity. Please just give me the strength you have and try to give me hope for the future. I have to ONLY focus on the positives this situation has presented to me, and those positives are how strong my relationship has grown to the LORD. I truly believe that the Lord wants what’s best for us and that he would not give us a trial that we could not over come. Not saying that this is what the Lord wanted for me, people have their free agency. But I know that if I turn to the Lord at this time he will give me all the strength I am going to need, and if I don’t feel like I have the strength to go on he will carry me until I do. I want to end this blog with my testimony and say I have never FELT so strong that this is truly our Heavenly Fathers TRUE church. That the only way you can ever know if what we believe as LDS members is true is to TRULY and SINCERELY seek the Lord. If you sincerely want a relationship with our Heavenly Father than all you have to do is open your heart and let him in. I know that prayer is not always easy and you may not always get the answers that you may want, but I know that he hears us. No matter who you are or what you have done he hears us each individually and he feels our pain and suffers with us. I know that through prayer we can develop a special relationship with our Heavenly Father that we can not achieve in any other way. I know that the scriptures, although confusing at times hold many answer that all of us seek in our life. And the only way to seek those answers is to study the scriptures, and I promise that if you do that your life will be blessed. I truly believe that the more trials the Lord throws our way the stronger person we become. And the most important thing that I testify to you today is that you can not do it by yourself. If you do not have the Lord in your life as your number one priority above EVERYONE else then you will NEVER be truly happy. Your marriage will never be the strongest it could be without the Lord there by your side. That your kids will never know true happiness until they, themselves know this truth. It has taken me a very long time to have the faith I need in the Lord to say I am weak and I can not do this without you. So if you have not come to that point in your life yet I challenge you to put everything else aside and turn to the Lord and let him in your heart because no matter how strong you think you are, you are NOT strong enough without the Lord. I leave this with you in the name of Jesus Christ.

Also my new blog is ficekfour@blogspot.com

Growing up so fast!!

What happen to the time, my little Colton is already 8 months old. He has already got four teeth, is crawling all over the place, and probably be walking tomorrow. My little baby, is no longer my little baby. Good thing I have friends that have babies so I can still get my baby fix!! There is NO WAY I am getting pregnant again!

OUR HOME!!

Finally I had time to get pictures of the house!

Here is the kitchen and dinning room, with one of the cutest little boys crawling towards you!

Here is the living room Kadyn is watching Thomas the train, (no surprise there)!

And this is the kid's playroom, I use this a lot for my day care kids too. Soon we want to convert the garage into a bonus room, but untill then this will do.

This was my tax return gift to me, our washer and dryer that we had since we got married took a trip to appliance heaven and in return a got this, yeah!!! :)

These are the bunk beds that Nick built, they turned out just like I wanted them!! The boys love them too which is a plus.

Boys bathroom, Kadyn has to go upstairs everytime to use it cause it is "his" bathroom, and I can't use it.

Downstairs bathroom, I love having three toilets to clean, ha ha ha!

Master bathroom love having a his and her sink, Nick is finally no longer in my way ALL THE TIME!!

Master bedroom, still a work in progress kinda plain right know we still need a bed frame.

Love our closet plenty of room for everything
we are so excited to have our very own place that we can call a home. We plan on being in this house for a very long time. We miss you all so much and hope to see you soon!
Love The Ficek's

LOTS of updates!!!

Okay so as you all know life has been CRAZY!! But I'm sure you all know that even though life is CRAZY and there are a hundred things going on at once your kids still seem to do the sweetest cutest things ever. So just to update you all on everything that the kids have been up to.
Kadyn is no longer my little boy, and he is SO smart! Everything he hears he picks up on, (no matter good or bad)! Just an example. SO I have my day care kids now during the day and the 2 year old I watch has the same name as Austin. So I have been calling him Austin James and calling my Austin, Austin Ficek. The two Austin's, Colton, and Connor (the other little boy I watch) were all down for a nap so Kadyn and I were just hanging out watching some Thomas the train. All of a sudden he hears one of the kids on the baby monitor and says, "mom who is that"? I said, "I think it is Austin". He said back to me, "Austin James or Austin Ficek". I said your brother Austin. Then he says "you mean Austin Ficek"? So now no matter if the other Austin is hear or not he has been calling his brother Austin Ficek. I think it is cute how he wants to do everything just like me. So last weekend the kids went to Grandma Kathy's house for the weekend. When they got home they had the best time ever according to Kadyn. As he was starting to tell me about all the COOL things they did, I asked him if his Grandma spoiled them when they were there. He didn't answer just kept going on about all the great things they did. He went on to say, "maybe we should go to Grandma Kathy's house again next weekend". I replied saying, "if you go over there every weekend I will miss you". Then he says to me without any hesitation at all, "well maybe we should go live with Grandma Kathy, she spoils us". I laughed so hard, I didn't even realize that he heard me when I said that to him. I guess like I said earlier he hears everything! Last thing I just have to tell you all about is Kadyn's little "friend" I caught him playing with. For those of you that don't know our back yard is still pretty much dirt and rock, so I have not been letting the kids play outside. Well I got busy and he went outside. He came in and told me about the big black spider that he found outside. I told him to show me where the spider was. This is what he showed me!!

Probably the biggest black widow I have ever seen in my life. I told him never to play with spiders again they will kill him. I feel bad that I know have him completely paranoid of spiders, but I guess with his curiosity maybe that is a good thing.
Austin (Ficek) is loving having another kids his age to play with. Him and Austin James get along so well it makes it nice. He still idolizes his brother, but now has another kid to play with. When the boys went to stay with Grandma Kathy for the weekend the only thing Austin wanted to talk about was that they got ICE CREAM!! I asked him all kinds of questions and the answer to every one was we got ICE CREAM!! He was so cute!! He loves the new house, and especially the new bunk beds (thanks to daddy). I think he likes them so much because now he can be just like is older brother and he gets to sleep on the top bunk too. He has overnight become SO independent. He want to get his own food, get himself dress, when I try to help he says "do it", and pulls away from me. I'm sure you can imagine what he looks like when I don't help at all, although sometimes he does surprisingly well. He is a "BIG BOY" now and he makes sure I know that! He is always showing me his muscles and how strong he is. It will soon be time for pottie training know that he is such a big boy, that means no more diapers.
Last there is Colton. So he has went from immobile to basically walking. He is all over the place I can't keep track of him. He has bruises all over his forehead from pulling himself up on things, just to fall back down. He is growing up WAY too fast, I'm still not sure how 8 months have passed us by. It is hard to believe this summer he will be 1 year already!!! He is such a great little baby and always so happy, if only all three boys would have been this happy from the start! I loves his new found freedom and although it means he is growing up, I like that he can make an attempt to keep up with his brothers. I could tell that he has just been dying to do what they do! He also sprouted 3 teeth overnight!
As for everything else after 2 weeks of working at the old house we are finally done. I think I had more serious meltdowns in those 2 weeks then I have ever had in my life. I was so stressed out I lost my voice for about 5 days, it is still not all the way back. Let's just say if it could go wrong IT DID!!! It would take me 20minutes to go over everything that went wrong and just say I am so excited to never again in my life see that house!!!
I am excited for what lies ahead for us. We still have a lot of work on the outside of the new house to do, basically a yard in the front, side, and back!! But it will all be wroth it. I'm sure this summer we will have lots and lots and lots of pool parties and BBQ's to make up for all the hard work. I am looking forward to making so many great memories in our New home, and sharing all those memories with the people that mean the most to us, YOU!!!!
We love you! Kendra, Nick, and the Boys!!

OUR HOME!!

Okay so I know it isn't much but I am CRAZY busy still and this is all I have time for. I will update everyone soon (I PROMISE), but for now gotta go!! Love ya!!

CRAZY CRAZY WEEK!!!

Okay, so this has probably been one of the craziest weeks of my life. Let's start you out with a quick update. Last week I found out that we got the house we having been trying to buy. That was on Saturday the 29th of March. So I was waiting to hear for sure what was going to happen till I started to pack. That means I had done NOTHING done. Well I find out that we can move in to the house the following weekend the 5th of April, so like my crazy self I jumped all over that opportunity. Yeah I guess I didn't realize how much work I had cut out for myself, (and all my friends and family). So moving day came, without out getting a wink of sleep almost the whole week. I was still packing little things up when the gang got there at 10:00am. The move was the smoothest part of the whole ordeal. We had a ton of people show up (THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO WAS THERE)!!!!!!!!!!!! We couldn't have done it without all your help. So the move was over and by Monday I had our new house all put together with pictures on the walls and everything, (thanks Mom, and Josh and Marjie). Well all that was the easy part compared to what I had ahead of me!! Not joking!! I committed to our old Landlord that we would completely re-paint the house, not knowing once again what a huge project that would be. By the way off the subject but during all this craziness I had Nick build 3 bunk beds for me while he was just starting a new term at school. (THANKS BABE)!!! Back to the subject of painting, sorry my mind sometimes wonders :) So I asked Jake (Nick's best friend), if he would paint the house with a spray gun. He told me sure no problem I would just have to tape off the house for him. Well I thought sweet no problem that should only take a few hours and then I will be done. Well let’s just say I am not a good judge of timing when it comes to that kind of stuff. Three days latter and I am STILL not done. My kids have been left here and left there for three days now, yes I feel like an awful mother. But thanks to their Grandma Peggy and Kathy, Josh and Marjie, and Becki I am sure they have gotten plenty of love. Thank you guys SO MUCH I couldn't have done this without you guys. So tomorrow first thing we are painting the house and then it is done!! WOOOO HOOOO!!! So to everyone out there that helped so much, let’s throw a party!!! I'll let you know when. I'll provide the food you provide the fun!!!! Love you all so much couldn't have pulled this one off without you!!! PS I have not had any time to take pictures, but I promise I will have them on here by the weekend, check back!!! :)

Happy Easter!!

OK, so this Easter has been CRAZY!! My kids are nuts, I have never seen them have so much energy. Just to give you an idea how off the walls they are... when we got home from Easter dinner Austin was still going strong. He sat down on our big chair to have a "cool-down time" or "give mom a moment of silence time", and within not even 30 seconds he was dead asleep. I was talking to him and as he was answering he feel asleep in mid-sentence. And then there is Kadyn who has not stopped now for 2 days. If I let him he would eat his entire bucket of candy, (he probably already has). Just an example of how sneaky he is.... we were at Peggy and Jerry's house yesterday and Becki's girl were up there too. For any of you that don't know Becki's middle child Sophie and Kadyn are BEST friends. So they were off playing in the kitchen and I was down the hall, when I hear Kadyn say "don't tell my mommy", so I walk over to the kitchen, and some how he had found his bucket of candy once again and was sharing ALL his candy with Sophie. When I walked into the kitchen I have never seen them try to hide something so fast in their lives. Followed by the look of WHAT I did nothing wrong. To say the least we have not had any shortage of excitement this weekend. I hope everyone else had just as an eventfull Easter as ours. We love you all so much and miss those of you who are far away!!! Love Kendra

PS Hope you enjoy this slide show!!!